Anna

Sorry guys for the lame updating!

Well... I don't know what to tell you guys... there's so much going on in my life right now, so I don't know where to start.

School is fine, nothing special going on there really... It's keeping me busy...
I moved... Again...
So I'm living with a friend of mine now (Manuela). It's perfect! I love it!
The previous drama is pretty much solved...
And there's new drama going on in my life.... I guess it's meant to be or something...

But I have the most amazing friends that's putting up with me and all the drama!

I miss y'all!

Hey guys!

I'm so sorry for the lame updating. I just don't find the time to update this one anymore... Which is kind of sad I guess...

Well, I've been up to a lot lately.  Moving to my own place and all... And school is taking a lot of time too.... I don't really like school, it's lame. But I love my friends here, so they're making me stay.

I don't even know what to tell you guys! I miss you so much! So I'm doing my best to save my money so I can come over and visit you guys! Hopefully I'll get a job this spring so I can get some extra cash... And I might start riding again! I was out trying this BIIIG horse yesterday. He was huge! And completely nuts in the beginning! I didn't like it at all, and almost gave up. But later I really understood how to ride him, and it went pretty much perfect! He walked in the right shape and everything! Such a beautie! So I hope the owner will call back and tell me to start riding him a couple times/week. I think she was gonna have one or two more coming over and testing him before she was gonna make a decision. So cross your fingers she will pick me!

Love you all!

I thought the drama would be all over by now... But apparentely it's not. It's even more drama now.

And I started a fight with one of my best friends. It was so stupid! I can't remember why I got so mad at him, and I can't remember what I said to him either... And then he said something that made me so upset I started to cry. I kind of now what it was about but I can't remember exactly what he said. But I now he said it because he cares for me... I think we sorted it all out pretty much right away, and that we're OK now. I hope we are!

The reason behind the fight is kind of some old drama that I thought was all over, but I guess it's not.
And I don't want to put any energy on all this old drama, it's so stupid! (Hmm, I think that was pretty much what we fought about).

Well, I don't even know what to tell you. It's all so complicated, and I don't want to put any names out here. I know that most people read my swedish blog, but who knows, maybe the ones involved actually read this one too!

On a happier note... I moved! To my own little house! Haha. A 25 square-meter little house with a tiny kitchen and a tiny bathroom. It's only big enough for one... I kind of like it. But I don't like the lonelyness that comes with living on your own... I'm pretty much going insane! Haha. :P

Love you all and I miss you so much!

I'm finally done with my Communication Technology-cours (ComTech). It was freaking boring!

A new course starting Monday, so I'm thinking of starting to read some of the books already... just to be ahead from the start.

I'm moving on Sunday, to a little cottage pretty much. 25 squaremeters. So not very big, but big enough for me alone. So that'll be fun! The entire apartement is filled with boxes now and it looks like shit pretty much! And I was supposed to have a party tomorrow (it's my B-day for everyone who forgot!) but I had to cancel it. Can't have a party with boxes all over the place and such a mess! So yeah... It's pretty much post-poned for a while...

Well, Lotta and I are heading to the gym! :)

Love you!

I'm in class right now... Learning how to blog! It sucks! :(
It's not hard to blog! Like seriously! I really don't get this...
And I'm tired from yesterday (partying), and I just want to go home and go to bed.. But I have this thingy to attend at 6 pm, and then I won't really have time to go home and then go back... Well well...

And there's only a month left till my birthday! I'm excited! And I'm actually going to celebrate my birthday with a party (it's on a saturday) so it'll be a lot of fun! :)

Well, maybe I should pay some attention to the lecturer now...

Love you all!

Happy Birthday Girls!
I hope you're having an awesome day!

I haven't had the time to send you guys your gifts but I will get going on that asap!

Love you!

I'm in Stockholm for the week (no lectures), so I had a sushi-date with my cousin at Odenplan today. So I decided to go by the church and visit Joe... I sat there for a while, crying my eyes out... again... and then lit a candle for him...

I miss you all!
Love you!

Haha!
Like I said. I'm pretty much only hanging out with guys here in Jönköping. It's so much fun! Finally I have someone to ask when I'm getting weird texts from guys... Haha. And they can give me a new point of view on a lot of different things (mostly evolving around guys though). It's awesome!

'Cause whatever guys say... they're not so easy to understand as they think! Hahaha! ;)

Well... There's a lot going on in my life now, and it's great to talk to my guys and get there view on some of the things... :) But to get it all figured out I think I have to think and rethink a lot.... So tomorrow (Sunday) I'm going to shut off my cellphone, the computer, the TV. And just being alone the entire day... :) I think it'll help a lot! :D 'Cause I really need time to be lonely with all my thoughts and emotions and everything... ;)

Well I miss you guys!

... he/she knows what you need before you know!
... he/she gets whatever you need without you telling him/her to get it.
... he/she help you keeping your mind on something else.
... he/she will keep others out of your way so you get your own space.

And after all this he/she will still not judge you when you're being a total jerk in return. He/she just know it's not your day... :)

I'm so glad I have my friends here in Jönköping to help me with everything! No matter what I know I have my guys to fall back on. The guys and Lotta.

Thanks guys for everything! These past days have been tough, and I don't know what I would have done if I hadn't had Lotta here to talk to... Or the guys to support me and helping keeping my mind on other things.

I actually think the drama is all over... Both of them... :)

I did what you said Erika, and I think it'll get better now... Or atleast X appologized for being a jerk, so I guess that's good ;)
But from now on, I'm going to try to stay out of all the drama! I so hope it'll help to hang out with guys... No girl-drama at least! ;) No talking behind the back or anything! I hope...

I'm so sick of all this drama!
And I'm so mad that I'm getting all upset about it! I shouldn't they're just being jerks taking advantage of me being all this emotional...! Of course I'm going to respond angry and defencive if I think you've offended me! Which she did! And then being all about "you're so immature" and whatever... Actually, who started it all? Who couldn't look the other way and let it be? I think that would have been the mature thing to do. 'Cause it's in the past anyway!
 
It's such a stupid thing anyway. So it shouldn't really bother me... But somehow it does!
Probably because they're both mad at me for something I've done and an other thing I didn't! It's so stupid!
She is being such a hypocrat! (spelling?) I've heard it twice, and two different stories of it. I don't know who I'm going to believe, she that's being the biggest jerk on the planet or him just being a jerk? I don't know...

Well, I guess this is the reason I'm only hanging out with guys here in Jönköping. Except from Frida, Lotta and Piff all my friends that I'm hanging out with daily are guys! And I love it! I don't have all that stupid girl-drama in my life anymore! Or that's what I thought... But well... I should let it be... They're not here anyway, they're in Stockholm and I will hopefully not see them again... Ever...

Okey, I know it's not even fall. But I'm bored so I started looking into how much it would cost me to go to SD next summer. And I think I can save enough money for a trip over in June or July.
So what d'you say? Anyone interested in having me over? ;) And hanging out next summer?
I can't promise I'll come over, but I so want to do it!!! I miss you guys so much, and it'd be so much fun if I could make it! :)
I'm not sure how long I would stay... How long would you want me to stay?

Well, I'm heading out for a walk!
I miss you all!
Love,
Anna

So now I've moved my laptop to my room and my desk, and hopefully this will make me more focused on my assignement and maybe I'll get it done today.
I kind of have to get it done today, 'cause tomorrow I'll have a studyfree day. My roommate and I will go to the mall and just relax. She's had a lot of lectures this week and a lot to do pretty much all the time, and I've been studying way too much... Haha. Or not too much. I've been stressing too much about studying.
I only have one more assignement to do now, and read the web-article that's due on friday aswell.
And then read my notes from the lectures and then just read the summaries in the two books we have the test on. But thankfully we're allowed to bring our books to the test!!! :D Yiey! And I've looked through the old tests, and I don't think it's going to be too hard. Especially not when we can bring our books! :D

And Lisa. I never said I was drunk! ;) And you shouldn't really say anything. Who offered me a tequila-shot before school on my birthday??? ;)

Love you all!

I forgot to mention... I don't have any internet at home anymore... I don't know why it broke down on me... So just so you guys know :)

Love you!

edit: I have internet at home now... :D Yiey!

... I really am. If it only could be as easy as in the movies.

And maybe it would be easier if only one other person was involved... And not two as it is now... But actually it was only one involved until about 2 days ago... 'Cause the second person is actually history. I thought it was all over, but apparentely not...

And the first one, he's kind of pissing me off now! He's not even polite enough to text me back! Or well, he said Hi when I saw him in the hallway... But after what he said last weekend, it's so weird! Maybe he was still drunk when he said that? But I sure got sober fast when he said it.... And I don't know... It's just confusing...

And if we should go back to the second one... He's REALLY confusing me. Not being in touch for a month and then it's alright to say something. I don't know what the deal is with him! And each time he's contacting me I'm getting all excited... But I just don't know!

Like my Roomie and I use to say... "Why can't it be like in the movies?"
It would be so much easier then...